Nothing, I don’t know

Dreams are never coming true,
Reality hits me very hard,
Pain is running through my veins,
Sadness is cutting my nerves.

My brain became a dumpsite of memories,
My heart became an active volcano of my raging feelings,
My lungs became so weak,
that sometimes they can’t even function properly,
My stomach is so depressed,
that it don’t want anymore food,
I want to scream but my mouth was shut down,
After my ears are used to everyone’s words,
My hands are burning with the guilt of my actions,
My legs are still struggling to stand strong,
My body is shivering with fear,
My eyes are filled with tears,
And my head is spinning around.

But
If anyone looking at me,
My face will never show any of my struggle
If anyone ask me, ‘how are you’
My lips, they just smile
If anyone ask me what happened
Nothing, I don’t know.

~Padisetti Monikeswari~

My name is Padisetti Monikeswari. Currently, I'm studying final year of BTech Mechanical Engineering. I write poems when I feel extreme emotions. This is all about me.