I thought you were gonna stay.
You promised you said you were here for my worst days.
Yeah, I know I ended it and blocked you,
Still, somewhere, my heart hopes for the return of you.
I thought your presence was healing me,
But instead, it was bringing out the insecure, anxious me.
Well, if it’s love, it’s love if it’s not, it’s toxic.
Oh, LOVE is too strong a word to misuse.
Honestly ATTACHMENT is the real game.
Of course I failed it.
Allowed myself to crave your attention
Oh, I almost forgot to mention…
Those pretty words you told.
The way you lied that was bold.
Did I ever tell you those pretty lies I still hold?
Because accepting the truth might make me cold.
I don’t want to go back to where I came from
Where anxiety strikes me at dawn,
Makes me insecure, makes me remember
The time you told me parts of your past and you were still fine.
Yeah, agreed it’s past. But how am I supposed to explain?
I don’t wanna be one of them,
“yes I know” you claimed…
But still, your actions were the same.
This rhyme is being lame
Not again… ugh.
They say right person, wrong time.
Wrong person, right time.
No right. No wrong.
It was all fine.
It wasn’t meant to be for us.
Maybe it was just lust… not really.
We never reached the crust.
Whatever it was it was cool.
Even though it made me attached and possessive
Okay, here I am: fool.
Somewhere I know I wasn’t ready for it not with you, my knight.
Yes, I was insecure and needed constant reassurance,
But you being you your schedule was always tight.
I was an overthinker, and be honest my overthinking was right.
Being here, I see no light..
Because I’m aware those insecurities I hid
Will return at night.
But surely the scars you left will fade,
Will get over the mess you made,
Either way gotta celebrate life like a fest
Because who knows what’s next?
~Ishana Jiwani~
Writer’s Introduction : Hello, I’m Ishana Jiwani. With a multitude of dreams to chase and writing as a cherished hobby.
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