Sometimes I do feel like I am not a normal person. Am I different? or I am just like normal person? Sometimes I like to spare time alone crying at night. You don’t know my story and don’t know me either so, just now let’s talk about feelings only! I know right now I am talking like a nonsense person. Well did you guys know about [ADHD] disease? I am not doctor here so you can search about on sites. I think I am suffering from that, but I did not tell my parents about that, and I don’t want to tell about that to my parents either. They would ignore that and make fun of me. I know my parents support me with everything but still it makes me feel anxious.
Did you ever hide something to your parents and closed ones too? Did you hate yourself too? Sometimes I feel more motivated to my studies but sometimes I just like to do other things which my parents and closed ones don’t like me to do like.
I just lay down on my bed with my phone in my hand whole day or do drawings continuously 6 to 7 hours strait listen songs or read random books [by the way I like drawing, reading books and diary writing too] which doesn’t relate to my studies or writing secret diary and random books. Did you also write diary which you don’t want to show to anyone? I know it sounds crazy, but I don’t study when my exams are coming up, and that thing my parents specially my father hate. I know very well that they worried about me and my future. I know that I am not the child they deserve because they struggle a lot, and they are doing their best for us [their children- me and my younger brother]. That’s why I sometimes feel more guilty.
I have lots of dreams [i will tell you guys about my dreams in any other blog] and they have lots of expectations from me. Some time I feel more happy and some times more sad. Because of that kind of mood, I lost lots of friends, family and try to live away from outside world with my loved ones and my feelings that nobody wants to listen. Because of that lonely thoughts and bad temper my loved ones run from me. But I am telling you that I really love my family and all closed ones, but I can’t show them my love to them.
I know you guys get bored while reading it lol 😀 next time i try to write something interesting and short hehe….even nobody wants to know how i feel they just give name name to my anxiety- funny, angry person, frustrated, cry baby etc. I just simply want to live like a normal person and i want people who understand me just watching in my eyes or just understand by listening the first word from my mouth.
That’s all for today thanks to read it till the end and don’t forget to tell me answers of the above questions. SEE YOU GUYS NEXT TIME WITH DIFFERENT TOPIC!!!
[Let me know how is it]
~Aanaquius~
Hi! I'm not a famous person but for your knowledge I'm a writer and an artist too. I'm in my teens right now, oh and I'm not reveling my gender yet nor my real name and not my face...haha. I like to write and love to draw. I wrote some stories too on my Wattpad account name: Aanaqius. I like to display emotions through my writings.
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